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That one time I asked my psychotherapist (who was also my #thedaringway certification supervisor) if we can find a neurosurgeon to slit and remove my #highlysensitiveperson and #empath from my brain and nervous system. 😢 You have no idea how much searing pain, time, energy, discipline, agony, focus, love, breathwork, and meditation I devote to alchemize your anxiety into peace, your fear into courage, your depression into light and you grief into joy. 🔮 You have no idea how many nights I prayed on my knees to God, to the Universe, to Life itself to end my life, so that I wouldn’t have to feel and endure your pain and suffering anymore. I remember wishing this since I was 4. 🐣 I feel your grief before you even know your loss. I feel your rage before you even name your wound. I feel your terror before you even know your trauma. It’s utterly exhausting and there’s no way to surgically remove this curse. 🦋 And so I carry on with #radicalacceptance of my #sacredcontract. I journal about the 10 years and $100,000 invested in healing, personal growth and #illumination. I wrap myself in the 23,000 #dailygratitude entries I’ve kept since 1999 (3 per day) and in my sisterhood / soul family‘s virtual arms. I’m as surprised as anyone that I’m still alive. I’m as shocked as the next person that I can even thrive. 😴 My point is: you may be more sensitive than you think. You may be more of an empath than you know. You may feel like you’ve been dumped on Earth School to suffer for others more than you care to admit. I don’t have all the answers but I can offer you THE FULLEST PERMISSION to sleep, sleep, and sleep some more! Especially during this pandemic. Most likely you’re being upgraded to alchemist, along with thousands of beings. It may suck big time, but believe me, the more you fight it, the more you’ll suffer. It’s not a gift/curse you can return for a refund. Spiritual awakening and #soulmaturation don’t work like that. But hey, at least you won’t be alone, I’m here, so is my sisterhood and soul family to welcome you to the club! #permissionslip #spiritualawakening #hsp #thealchemist #freedompreneur #guidetograce #lifestylemodel freedom #successcoach #overachieversdc

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With infinite grace,

xo, Ella

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Ellany LeaAUTHOR • When Ellany said yes to freedompreneurship, she had no idea it'd turn into a spiritual quest of reclaiming the 1,000 pieces of her soul.